Things are coming together

Life is an absolute rollercoaster right now and this is the hardest I have worked in my life and I am so proud to see everything coming together so flawlessly. It reminds me that we are right where we are supposed to be in this universe. I've fallen on hard times, I've lost everything but a dream. A dream that I have held on to tooth and nail for 10 years. No matter how hard times got, I always said to myself, "Keep on fighting, don't give up."

At times every single fiber of my being hurt, I was in a very toxic work environment, battling anxiety and ptsd from a violent event I encountered on the job, my self esteem was non existent, I thought of running away, getting in my car, going to Arizona and living homeless, id be nomadic maybe I fanaticized. I thought about walking out of the back door at work and into traffic. I was only months ago in the worst situation I could imagine, On the verge of relapsed I finally remembered. I have a voice. I spoke up. I got a new job in December, I LOVE IT! It is the best dang job I've ever had. It's with the same company but its just managed lightyears better. My self esteem began to rise, some of my mental coherence came back as well, something I never thought I'd have again. I began treatment for fibromyalgia and guess what it really works. I'm in the least amount of pain that I've been in in years. I still have good days and bad days, the last few weeks per say have been notably brutal as everything has been so chaotic I haven't been able to rest and listen to my body properly so my pains elevated but as I finish out my last week and a half at my job, I look forward to the journey ahead. Me and my fiancé Jeff bought a motorhome, put our resignations in, and are leaving to cross the country. Just us, our two dogs, and a whole bunch of cameras and equipment to bring you guys along the way and launch Ashliveslife into the stratosphere. This is truly the beginning of the rest of our lives.