Not Feeling well!

The last few days have not been the greatest, honestly the last couple weeks. My fibromyalgia has flared up in the worst way. I know these flareups happen and am handling it. I'm going to get thru this and get better. I haven't stopped taking care of my self, and I still feel inspired. I'm a bit down lately the winter is catching up with me for sure. In reflection though this has been the best I've handled in over a decade since I got sick with this disease. I am beyond grateful for how things are going. Feeling this way has let me reflect and I see how much has changed. I quickly forget at times I have a disease when it rests, I forget to rest, I over exert myself, and then I beat myself up when I can't do things or mess something up. I'm healing from years of trauma, and self abuse, I'm getting better at taking care of myself, loving myself, and taking it easy on myself. I take it one day at a time. Some times I take it by the hour and at the end of the day I can say, for the last two years I am so proud of myself for how far I have come in such a short time. I think at the end of the day, even though I feel like garbage, I know that I have felt so much worse because I never knew how to cope.