How to Move on from Here

Hi, I'm writing this because a lot of bad things have all just transpired in a row and my head is left spinning. I was just starting to think everything was turning around when out of the blue the universe steals my dog from me. i just snapped my glasses, when my computer decided to log me out of my deviantart account which was created using facebook. That got deleted. I have lost access to upload my cannon photos and to say I am not okay would be a bit of an understatement, this has been over three years in the making and my whole life has flipped upside down, I havent been okay since Apollo passed. I'm fighting every fiber in me that wants to shut down. I'm struggling, I will be ok, I'm not going to relapse even though I would be very hard pressed to turn one down right now. I don't know what to do from here other than just pick up where I left off, keep trudging along. I've got no choice, I've come to far, I've dreamt for too long. Life just about sucks right now, but I will do what I can when I can to keep this brand on track. My heart hurts, I'm tired, my eyelids feel like theyve been sanded, I have so much to do, but it can wait. for now I need time. to heal. I will still be updating the website, with the festival not far away I am gearing up to launch Ashliveslife up another level or two and I can't afford to miss this oprotunity.