The following page contains: Talk of Depression, Alcoholism, Thoughts of dying. Nudity. Descriptions on this page may be graphic and not suitable for all readers. Digression is advised. I have come to peace with this chapter in my life and am sharing this in hopes it can find others in the situation I was in and let them know that it is okay and to just reach out and most importantly just hang in there. It does get better.

With the warning out of the way, lets turn back the clock to my rock bottom. To set the scene me and Jeff had moved to Evans City, a small country town in southeast Pennsylvania near Pittsburgh. It is here where I began drinking regularly because of chronic pain I had developed when I was 18.