A dark story

I'm busy writing in my novel tonight and its kind of dawning on me how dark a story it really is and then it kinda shocks me even more when I realize this story is my life. Its just a little wild to think that I have not had an easy start. I cant say Its been a bad life but it has been filled with drama and trauma and the soul that emerged became beautiful. And yes, my story is a hard one, but it is a beautiful journey. Even when I wasn't able to see any of it. I guess lately I've been feeling sentimental. Spirits by the Strumbellas has brought tears to my eyes screaming "I don't want to see another night lost inside that lonely life, when im here" The original lyric is this lonely life. Not that. I adlib that lonely life. That I once had. Not even six months ago I felt cold and lost in desperation. I built up hope but failure was all I known. Lyrics by Linkin Park Iridescent. I write this because it just blows my mind how much my life has changed. I never gave up, I always found that one fiber to split and push ahead. I kept dreaming, i never let anybody tell me I cant do it! Screw them. Screw all the bigots in this world Hate has no home here!

Why did I write this? Its an almalgomation of all the things I' ve been thinking lately. My life is so crazy beautiful, I love you all and more importantly I have learned to love myself. I cant thank the friends who held my hands thru this rollercoaster from hell called life enough. There have been some very high peaks and some hella dark valleys.The true GOATS know who they are. I have some of the best friends I can immagine. My circle is small, but I wouldn't change a thing. My novel is based on my life, and my life has given me everything I need to share this story, and maybe just find somebody in as dark a situation as I was in. My goal is just to help even one person in this life. And all of this will have been worth it.